Lost and Full

by xchange ~ May 27th, 2015

I am a bit lost with the blog as I have very little time to read the messages of others and when I am trying to write it all goes queer ;-)  I just finished a book by a swiss writer, long time dead by now, Blaise Cendrars “Sutter’s Gold”; The story of a swiss men who emigrates to the San fransisco bay area just a litlle time before the Gold Rush, makes a lot of money and looses everything once the Gold rush arrives and finally gets crazy. And working on a piece Dreamland which is base on the theme of the Taxi Dancer, and the first Taxi Dance Hall were in SF. Just that to say that somehow the the (X)change and the blog maybe(?) does already invades me and inconscienly I am all of a sudden reading things which are related to San Fransisco.
I am extremely excited about the meetings because I don’t know anything of what really will be made, that big hole, that full space of emptyness excite me. Expectation are always higher then what’s is happening, therefore I am just getting ready to share and nourrish myself from that unknown big fucking Hole. I think in dance we are to much fullfilling thing, as the body tells so much already by the only action of being, standing.
Sending love from Geneva where there was no gold rush but there is bloody to much fucking gold here.! See you soon!!!


vulnerability + universality

by Liz Tenuto ~ May 26th, 2015

I have never met anyone before who wants to become a shittier person. Nobody has ever told me, “yea, I want to treat others worse.” or “I love making myself feel badly.” Here we are, all striving to be better. Maybe, like me, you feel like you make a million mistakes a day. And maybe, you understand that what matters is
a) that we are able to perceive those mistakes
b) that we can express when we’ve done wrong
c) eventually or quickly, we learn from them
d) maybe then we hold space for others to see/learn from those same mistakes when needed
e) and then we no longer identify with that behavior or pattern or it holds no space in our mind/body/spirit

Full disclosure: I have a tendency to stick to patterns for far longer than needed. Any big life shift for me happens years after I first realize that a change needs to be made. “This Year Is Different” was born out of my desire to dedicate a year of my life to making choices that make me a better person.

In talking to friends and collaborators it seems as though there are universal rights of passage that we all go through in our personal process of finding and bettering ourselves. We all share that there is a personal journey and perhaps each person’s path(s) has different directions, road blocks, terrains and clearings.

Each collaborator began the rehearsal process by writing a letter to themselves about things they would like to change/improve/respond to about themselves during this next year. They wrote the letter and put it in a self addressed envelope. I will mail the letter a year from when we wrote them. (If you want to write this letter and have me send it to you in a year, let me know and I’ll add your envelope to the others)

I recently began practicing this proprioceptive writing method, where you listen and write your thoughts for 25 minutes with a candle lit and Baroque music playing. There is no need for it to be cohesive or usable or decent writing. It’s aim is to help you listen to yourself and hear the voices inside your head. I can say that this practice has been REVEALING even after only 5 days of doing it.

Similarly, this piece, “This Year Is Different” looks at our inner thoughts, our inner triumphs and our inner struggles. It reveals four characters’ motivations for personal transformation and the ways in which they relate. I can’t wait to share it with you all…



by xchange ~ May 21st, 2015

The work i am interested in has been inspired by the roaring twenties was the birth of a new woman. She defied society’s standards of what its women were supposed to do, say, wear, act like and be. She wore shorter skirts, more dramatic makeup, and cut her hair. She flaunted her sexuality. She drank, smoked, and danced in clubs. She was a flapper and today she is called a HIPSTER! – ‘An unwashed and ungroomed person who hates corporations and everything mainstream, yet still buys Apple products.’

Though early women evolved to prefer muscular, athletic, confident, secure men, hipsters are convinced that men who try to achieve these characteristics and their female admirers are doing so because they lack the intellectual capacity to realize that pale, sickly men with a smug attitude make the best partners. The masculine ideals of absolute toughness, stubborn self-reliance and emotional silence have been shaken by a new emphasis on men’s emotions, need for advice, and the problems of masculinity. Although gender categories have not been shattered, these alternative ideas and images have at least created space for a greater diversity of identities.


Do you agree?


Reading and More

by xchange ~ May 13th, 2015

I finished the Witches book yesterday (thank you Nils).  I’ve been reading two books about time, technology and the future: River of Shadows by Solnit (describing the development of the American railroad, westward expansion and the man who developed quick photography, leading to film) as well as After the Future by Biffo Berardi (theory book about the disintegration of the idea of the FUTURE, and the economic mythologies and realities that supported Futurism and then destroyed it).

In relating to this project the Solnit book is stunning because of its description of San Francisco as it first developed, a no-mans land that became a center of commerce, and discovery and personal mythology; at the cost of the genocide of the Native peoples of the area. SF as a place of change and innovation echoes today with all the tech and silicon valley. It was the final destination of the transcontinental railroad, the end of westward expansion. You all are coming here, to this foggy place, a place I often find is liminal as much as bubbled by the geography. So I’ll share this…


“In the heyday of the gold rush, the immigrants were busy building California’s physical infrastructure: dams, roads, cities, farms. At the same time, a more subtle project of construction was launched, of California as a distinct culture. Immigrants bent the places’s meanings to suit their needs and dreams, and when they were done, something entirely new had been invented, something that would change the world, a kin of headstrong, rootless sense of heroic possibilities and glamour still summed up by the word CALIFORNIA. And much that was ancient had been lost, including the way that Modoc culture was tied, with a thousand threads of food and story and name and knowledge, to the place where Modoc had been as long as they remembered.” River of Shadows, Solnit


Mica Quote of the day

by xchange ~ May 12th, 2015

“The supernatural is nowadays often seen as opposed to technologies, but the technologies of the era often seemed supernatural themselves.  In the well-known words of science-fiction writer Arthur C. Clarke, “Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.” It is only becuase nature no longer seems so strong and immutable a force that changes no longer seem uncanny. In the beginning electricity seemed spiritual, a form of the life force…The changed brougth about by technology seemed supernatural at first, and photography was associated ith death both in the many, many images of the dad made during the early years of the medium and in hte way photograyphy changed death by making at leas appearance permanent.” River of Shadows, Solnit